this is what a desperate blog looks like

Wow, it has been forever since I have done this. But sometimes, as they say, you do what you have to do. So I have a question for everyone out there. That is assuming that someone still reads this. Do you believe that there are certian people that are supposed to only be in your life for a short period of time, but that is it? Or do you believe that all people start out that way, and it develops into something bigger? This is what, quite literally, keeps me up at night. There are some people that I have been able to "let go" of pretty easily. But then there are the other people, who for whatever reason, I am stuck on like a band aid. and I have tried to move on, tried to let go, tried to not care. but it never works. maybe I am doing it wrong. I don't know anymore. the truth is, I wish that somethings never had to change. I know that sounds childish. and maybe selfish. maybe that is my problem overall. I am a selfish creature. and by trying to hold on to something so hard, maybe all I am doing is creating more hurt. Maybe by not being able to let go, I am further hurting the people I am holding on to so desperately. thoughts? leave them for me. even if it is to tell me I am selfish . I just don't know what else to do anymore.